I had bad dreams about the ladders.
I finally got dressed and went looking for the guys that run the hostel to see where I should go today. I was directed to Blue Hole, which is actually in Google Maps, and about half an hour away.
I did not have my bathing suit in my daypack, so I made do with my bra!
Anyway, that's not my point. My point is that she also had a POOL! And I had long hair and I loved to make it float in the water and I would yell, "Marfa, Marfa! My hair is swimmin!" She's been dead for years, but, alone in the woods today, I yelled to her anyway. Maybe she saw.
I hiked out with no shirt on. I thought about covering up, but I decided that wasn't my story today-hiding my tummy because it's round. It's also painfully pale, has stretch marks, a freaky deep bellybutton (seriously, is that a sign of some kind of disease?), and doesn't always stay still when I move fast.
It wasn't a move to be all 'in your face, this is me, deal with it' it was a tip of the hand to myself. I've been making healthy choices, I've been trying new things, I have been more physical and pushing myself outside of my comfort zone. I'm not slim, I doubt I ever will be. But I am capable. I am strong, I can do what I set out to do, even if I'm slower than everyone else or need to find my own route to the end. This is me, I am 44!
I drove around some of Watauga Lake, it's just beautiful!!
Back at the hostel, I chatted with a few people and then opted to go get an early dinner. I have been doing Intermittent Fasting for about 6 weeks. I do NOT eat after 4 p.m. It's working.But yesterday I had a grilled cheese that was so perfect, so good, that I thought about it all day today. So I went to get another nearby. It was merely okay but was also only $1.99.
I rented a movie from the Redbox and am in for the evening. Tomorrow, I head home! I had come up planning to camp all weekend with the women's group, but it's a 90% chance of storms 12 hours tomorrow and a 60% chance for the 48 hours after that. I'm not a fan of wet camping. I may change my mind in the morning. I dunno.